Today I Learned That Not Everyone Has An Internal Monologue And It Has Ruined My Day. | Inside My Mind

🤪My day was completely ruined yesterday when I stumbled upon a fun fact that absolutely obliterated my mind. I saw this tweet yesterday that said that not everyone has an internal monologue in their head. All my life, I could hear my voice in my head and speak in full sentences as if I was…
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This is a question I’ve asked myself since elementary school… I specifically remember thinking and hearing myself say in my own head I wonder if that person is thinking about what I’m thinking, or if they’re thinking about if I’m thinking what they’re thinking about…

I can never turn my brain off, constantly rolling through options of different ways my day could turn out or what consequences may arise if I take or choose this action and are those better or worse than the consequences if I chose a different action…

Although this Blog post really puts it into perspective that all people are wired and built differently; which should not be considered a good or bad thing, it just is a thing and it is what it is…

HOWEVER, I am very much struggling to understand, accept, and digest without emotion the consequences of those that are “thoughtless” or without monologue in their own brain when their actions and choices directly impact my day to day life or interfere with the emotional wellbeing of my family…

Remembering that I cannot control anybody else’s choices nor can I force action, or even their reaction to said negative effect when it comes to other people, especially when they don’t view it as an issue or cause for concern is my Kryptonite right now!

I’m exploring and always open to new coping mechanisms and ways to practice what I preach; worry about what is in my control and just let the rest go. Happiness is not an achievement or certain level of success, nor is it something you can win, find, create, or expect others to create for you: which also means that I cannot allow other people’s actions and choices make me unhappy either <—- easier said than done!

Happiness is a choice and it starts within your own self and worrying about other people’s choices is not making me happy so I need to continue telling myself not to worry about what other people are doing, worry about myself and making sure that I’m doing everything that I possibly can to create the happiness that I desire!

Hope that makes a little sense, at least to some of you out there, and I don’t just sound like a crazy banshee 🤪

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